ABOUT TRICIA

Tricia's Story (Long)

When I was a little girl, I would often sit on the front steps of the suburban house where I lived in Sydney and gaze up at the stars with wonder and awe. I used to think about what existed beyond the boundaries of the world I knew, and wondered if angels and God were conscious of my thoughts. My only reference to angels or any other form of deity was linked to what I had heard in Sunday school or seen on the holy pictures that marked my mother's prayer book. Although I was only five, I had a strong desire to know more about the 'invisible' side of life and what might exist beyond the physical world.

My fascination was triggered by an incident that happened when I was four years old. One hot afternoon, I set off to the beach with my mother and my fourteen year old brother, Eddy. On that particular day, the beach was closed to swimmers. The storm water pipes at the bottom of the ocean were being retrenched. I was feeling adventurous, so I decided to follow my brother down to the water. As a child my courage was matched only by my curiosity, so I slipped under the barricades and decided to play on the edge of the surf.

Being ignorant to the unpredictable rhythm of the waves, I was caught off guard and swept into the ocean. I recall being pulled into a downward spiral until I lost all sense of physical consciousness. My initial state of panic was replaced by an overwhelming feeling of peace and tranquility. Within an instant, my struggle was replaced by stillness and my thoughts of helplessness were overcome by feelings of being completely protected. I began to detach from the confines of my physical body and was drawn upward towards a shimmering light. I entered an altered state and started to perceive my life from a higher perspective.

Hovering above the beach, I became aware of the warning signs that were posted along the waters edge. Although I had not yet learnt to read, in this expansive state I could decipher the information posted quite clearly. I watched my mother sitting on the beach totally unaware of my predicament. I then caught sight of my brother Eddy and noticed he started to panic. As if he was guided by some indefinable instinct, he dove into the water to search for my body. I attempted to send him a telepathic message to let him know that I was fine where I was, and there was no reason for him to be concerned. As soon as he pulled me out of the water, I was drawn back into my body and lost consciousness. Eddy was instrumental in saving my life. This supposed mishap, allowed me to 'go beyond the veil' and return with the memory that there is far more to life than what we see with our physical eyes.

I returned to my daily life with a window left open to other dimensions. After that early event I began to experience paranormal activity during the rest of my childhood. Quite often I would go to the bathroom in the middle of the night and come face to face with spirits in the hallway. The spirits seemed friendly enough, but the experience was somewhat unsettling at times. The entities would appear for a few minutes and then vanish as quickly as they came. I spoke to my mother about the reoccurring visitations and she calmly told me there were probably spirits in the house. She was completely at ease when she made the comment and so I was reassured that there was nothing to fear.

My mother had had a similar encounter in Malta during the 2nd World War as a teenager. When the air raid sirens sounded, she normally made her way to the closest bomb shelter. On this particular day, she decided to ignore the warnings and make her way to the kitchen while the house was empty, to pilfer an extra slice of bread. She had eleven brothers and sisters. Living on rations, they were always hungry. My mother had been through so many false alarms, she became quite blasé in the face of impending danger. As the noise from approaching aircraft grew louder, she realized that unlike her past experiences, the town was being bombed.

Her heart started racing and she was paralyzed by fear. It was then that she sensed an overwhelming presence and realized she was not alone. She turned to see an apparition of a woman wearing white, standing at the top of the stairs. The woman raised both of her hands as if to pass on a blessing; my mother began to experience a deep sense of peace and knew that she was being sheltered. She stood completely still as the planes flew overhead and listened as to the bombs exploded. Eventually the attack was over and the woman disappeared. When the sirens sounded the 'all clear' signal, my mother finally left her family home to realize that it was the only house left standing, in the middle of rubble and smoke.

I was seven when my mother told me her story. It allowed me to fully embrace the concept that we are never alone and there are those in spirit who always protect us. It made the unusual occurrences in my world seem more 'normal' and awakened my desire to explore even further. The most significant incident I remember happened one night when I was 10 years old. My sister Joni and I shared a bedroom. Late one night before we went to sleep, we talked about the interesting poltergeist activity that happened in our bedroom over the course of that week. Things disappeared and would then reappear days later. As my sister started to drift off to sleep, I sensed a presence in the room. My sister's bed levitated two feet off the floor and landed with a loud thump! She woke with a fright completely unaware of what had happened; for me, it was simply a sign of things to come.

My next awakening came at the age of eleven. One Sunday afternoon I sat in the kitchen with Joni and was overwhelmed with a desire to write. Within ten minutes I wrote a page of information that offered her wise counsel on how to alter the course of her life. She was struggling with a weight problem at the time that diminished her self-esteem. She was lonely as a result and so I often became her 'side kick' and confidant. To this day, I feel that the compassion that I felt for Joni was the emotion that allowed me to reach beyond my 'normal' way of thinking and access a deeper state of awareness. I read her my dissertations, which sent shivers through her body. She was overwhelmed with emotion; both captivated and bewildered. Not clear on where the message came from, I was inspired to investigate my newly found resource.

Rather than involve Joni in the process, I felt instinctively that I needed to sit quietly on my own. I withdrew into seclusion with pen and paper and started to write. The messages came through clearly and gracefully. I became aware of a quiet voice in the back of mind that basically gave dictation. The messages were always comforting and offered words of encouragement and wisdom. Listening to the voice became my refuge, in a household filled with conflict and fear. I had found my calm amongst the storm and a place of clarity amidst the turmoil. This inner guidance and counsel became an aspect of my life that was an ally and strength.

When I was older, I realized that I was clairaudient. I was attuning to the voice of my councilors in the Higher Realms. At the age of twelve, they taught me how to meditate by suggesting that I light a candle in the privacy of my bedroom and focus on the flame. That combined with a breathing technique allowed me to slip into an altered state quite easily, where I would experience a sense of deep serenity. I later learnt that this was a Buddhist practice, often used to still the mind. My sister had left home at the time, which gave me the freedom to spend many hours alone reflecting on the deeper meaning of life. I lived in two diverse worlds - my secret world of communing with spirit and the outer world of high school escapades. I was reluctant to share my experiences with anyone; in fear that they would think I was crazy. I entered this sacred space alone and shielded the information with great reverence.

It wasn't until I was seventeen that I fully understood what was happening. I met a woman, who I will call Leona, who had a profound understanding of Psychic phenomena and the esoteric sciences. I am certain she was sent into my life as a teacher to help me expand my methods of learning. I was working for a very prestigious interior design company at the time, and she was a furniture manufacturer. It was one of those synchronistic encounters that open you up to a whole new world of exploration. Leona offered broader insight into my childhood experiences and lent me a variety of books on metaphysics. We became good friends. I found it amusing that she tried to cash in on my abilities by asking me to predict the best property deals for her to invest in. I was also asked to 'tune into' her potential boyfriends and let her know which ones looked favorable. I offered to support her for a short period and quickly tired of the role of doing predictive readings.

Over the years I spent with Leona I met psychics that performed 'party tricks' that would make you gasp for air. I quickly learnt that this was no indication of an individual's spiritual development and turned my attention in a new direction. I entered a phase of studying Eastern religion and metaphysics. I followed a guru and learnt different forms of meditation.

At twenty-five I learned that I had contracted Tuberculosis, which had gone undetected for 2 years and spent the next 3 months in quarantine. I was warned that the next stage of the disease was fatal and that I could have died within 6 months. I have since learned there is no such thing as a coincidence, so it was no coincidence when my boyfriend met a man at a gas station, who on hearing of my condition, called me and introduced me to works he claimed would allow me to heal my illness. This was my introduction to numerous volumes written on the Ascended Masters. The books taught me to use my mind in meditation to focus the power of love and will to overcome my physical condition. I was being guided by the Ascended Masters and established a life long affinity with them. Within six months I was fully healed, with no residual scarring, and instead of staying on the drugs for a further 12 months, the shocked and amazed doctors gave me an unconditional release.

Confirmation of my affiliation with the Ascended Masters came in a dream shortly afterwards. I was transported through a tunnel into the center of a mountain where I found one of the Ascended Masters waiting for me. He manifested a hologram of my life and on entering the image I lived out certain events that would happen in the future. After leaving the hologram he said he would take me to the pinnacle of my life's experience. He placed a new hologram before me and this time when I entered I could not see anything. All I could feel was incredible waves of love. I wondered how anyone could feel malice, avarice, envy, hate, jealousy or any other negative emotion if this experience was available to all of us. I had moved beyond the 3rd dimension into the essence of All That Is.

Over the next ten years I traveled the world broadening my perspective on different philosophies. I read books that were channeled; including the writings of Seth, Alice Bailey, Godfrey Ray King, Lazaris and Eva Pierrakos, and found these had the most profound impact. I studied everything from the works of Carlos Castaneda to Science of Mind and Neuro Linguistic Programming. This led me into the practice of self-hypnosis, which enabled me to go much deeper in my meditations. Eventually I developed the capability of crossing over the conscious limit of the third dimensional mind, propelling me beyond time and space and into other dimensions.

Working as a freelance Art Director in film and advertising, allowed me the freedom and the resources to follow my spiritual quest. It was ironic that I was working in an industry that was primarily ego driven, because ego is the opposite of spirituality. My task was to create an illusion in a world that I had been taught was 'not real'. My physical world was colored by creativity, style and glamour. As an extreme contrast, I followed an inner path of searching for truth.

At the age of thirty-one, after ending a relationship with a man I was deeply in love with, I felt an incredible need to find my life's purpose. I visited sacred sites, healing retreats and learned to walk on hot coals, all in the name of creating a deeper relationship with my soul. I sat on mountain tops with holy men, rode horses with the American Indians and found myself contemplating the inside of Kahuna caves in Hawaii. It was in Hawaii that I was introduced to one of my most significant mentors - Lazaris. Over the next five years his work emerged as the catalyst for me to clear my own emotional blockages, which in turn, let me find my life's purpose of teaching and counseling people. But it would be some years before I was fully prepared to accept the role.

The following year my spiritual sojourns led me to New Mexico, where I felt a strong connection to All That Is. I would drive out to the middle of the desert, where there was no sign of human invention for miles. In this barren land of harsh contrasts, I felt there was no separation between my heart and the essence of life itself. It was here that I would later have a series of experiences that would alter the course of my life.

After traveling through America for 10 months, I returned to Santa Fe with the intention of getting clear on the next step to take in my life. After a week of introspective thought and consulting a few gifted physics, I was still uncertain of which path to choose. I had learnt that answers would often come to me in unexpected ways and to be open to all possibilities. On one particular evening, in a lucid dream state, I was visited by an extremely powerful, yet very gentle, American Indian. I had worked with my dreams since I was a child, and at times was given profound messages. I was aware that I was asleep and at the same time, I was fully conscious of being awake in the dream.

The Indian repeated a question that had been presented to me by a number of clairvoyants I stumbled upon over the previous twelve months. He asked me when I was going to start working with people on a spiritual level. I gave him my standard answer; I told him I wasn't ready. He replied with the same response as each of the clairvoyants. He told me I was waiting until I was perfect, and that this was never going to happen. I was confronted and sensed the strength behind his conviction. He told me he was about to place a man in front of me and requested I do a 'diagnosis'. I asked him how; he told me I knew the way and suggested I trust my instincts.

Although I was in a lucid state, at first I felt nervous. I centered myself and described what I could sense about the man who stood in front of me. I sensed his sorrow and confusion and talked about his fractured sense of belonging. Because I was in the 4th dimension, I had an expansive view of this man's experiences and saw who he was on a soul level. After my analysis was complete, I apprehensively asked the Indian for his review. He told me that my findings were 100% accurate and asked me when I was going to start listening to the messages that I was given, and when I was going to honor my gift.

After the dream ended, I woke bolt upright in my bed. I knew this was a message that could not be dismissed. Beyond doubt, this was the answer to my call for direction. I sensed that a new chapter of my life was about to unfold. The next morning, the friend that I was staying with, who I will call Laura, came into my room to deliver an unusual invitation. She told me her ex boyfriend, who I will call Max, was on the phone and wanted to meet me for coffee. I had met this man for no more than fifteen minutes, six months before. Laura said that Max was very insistent and so I agreed to see him.

We met in a little cantina in Santa Fe and he ordered a bowl of chili for breakfast. As I drank my coffee I asked him why he wanted to see me. He told me that he wasn't sure. He heard that I was in town and was curious to know more about me. Max was fairly shy and so I steered the conversation in his direction. As he began to open up, I realized that he was the man in my dream the night before. He was the person I was asked to 'examine'. Interestingly enough, Max was a big man who was part American Indian. When I realized who he was, I told him that I had dreamt about him and asked if he was open to hearing my experience. He agreed, and so I proceeded to disclose my observations. He was shocked; his fork promptly hit the table and he asked me how I knew these things. As the conversation progressed, I felt the presence of someone in spirit. That was not an unusual occurrence for me, due to my childhood experiences.

It was the American Indian who had come to me the previous night. I told Max that he was standing behind me, and he was welcome to ask him any further questions. The American Indian who later became know as One Who Stands Tall (nicknamed Totem), spoke to Max about making peace with his grandmother and releasing the shame he carried around his heritage. Max sobbed as I passed on the information from 'the other side'. This was to be my first 'assignment' acting as an intermediary between the physical world and The Higher Realms.

Although I was reluctant to formalize my sessions, Totem showed up at the most impromptu moments. At times I was opposed to offering insight to people that I met socially. Often they were friends or colleagues in the film industry who had no apparent interest in metaphysics. Totem would simply let me know telepathically that he would open the way for me to work with them. The unsuspecting person would then stop mid sentence, and change the course of their conversation. They would often ask me if I knew anything about dream interpretation or feel compelled to tell me about their relationship problems. Eventually I surrendered to Totem's suggestions. I came 'out of the spiritual closet' and gave myself the title of intuitive councilor.

When I was in a new age store in Boston, in the first month of our relationship, Totem led me to a beautiful piece of turquoise that was marked with a Y and said this was a gift for me. The Y was symbolic of 'the fork in the road', which represented the choice between following the path of Dominion or the path of the ego. That was Totem's message. He said the stone was to remind me not to get caught up in the world of the ego.

I spent three years working with Totem, both with people in sessions and in my private meditations. He was a great teacher for me who helped me discover the world of multidimensional consciousness. I would spend hours with him in the inner realms reviewing my past lives and learning about different parts of my nature. During this entire process my sensitivity expanded. I began to hear the voice of other people's councilors as well as my own. Not only could I decipher messages from the Higher Realms, I could also determine a person's core beliefs and pinpoint the cause of the person's distress. I was given an overview of their significant lifetimes and their inherent strengths, thus allowing them to align with their soul's purpose.

This insight allowed me to do more sessions out of which there was sufficient interest for me to begin to hold weekly group forums. This became the starting point for my seminars and workshops.

I returned to Santa Fe at the age of 35 with Totem as my 'invisible' companion. One morning I sensed his presence strongly as he came to me with a message. He told me that our work together had ended and it was time for me to enter the next level of spiritual initiation. He told me to take the stone and give it back to the earth with thanks for all that we shared together. I drove to Taos that day and buried the stone in the snow under a tree on the side of a mountain. Before he left, I was told it was time for me to be guided by the feminine side of my nature. As I shed a tear, he offered me consolation by reminding me that I was never alone and never would be alone.

I felt compelled to practically ground what I had learnt, and created The Color Compass, which is a system for helping people find clarity and direction. While promoting the Color Compass at the Whole Life Expo in Los Angeles, I was approached one morning before opening time, by an impeccably dressed gentleman, who seemed ageless and spoke with a non-specific accent. Appearing from no-where, he offered to give me a reading in exchange for a Color Compass. In an incredibly articulate fashion, he told me so much about myself and in such detail, I was left speechless. To my amazement he said that my 'spiritual awakening' was yet to happen. In retrospect, I recognized his face and voice as being that of the Ascended Master from my earlier dream, who had first taken me into the essence of All That Is.

Returning to Australia I went into retreat to write Facing the Dawn: Awakening the Sleeping Soul an inspirational directory to guide a person towards their true potential. In the process of researching the information through meditation, I left my body and merged with All That Is - beyond time or space. Here I had access to all information past, present and future and was able to enter different dimensions simultaneously. This lucid experience lasted 10 days, in which time I did not sleep, eat or drink, but emerged in perfect health, healed of a lymphatic disorder. This was the 'spiritual awakening' that had been predicted. The following year I went onto write Vision & Heart: Creating Balance & Harmony in Your Life.

Many of my clients asked me to teach them how to mediate. This prompted me to work with a composer in Los Angeles and professionally record The Art of Balance series and the Stress First Aid Kit.

My awakening had given me a new respect for my body and staying in balance. Gym training became a priority to keep me grounded, strong and vital. My fitness regime gave me a deeper understanding of the connection between mind, body and spirit and this inspired me to develop a program called Body Transformation - From the Inside Out, which I ran in conjunction with the University of Sydney, with outstanding results.

The pinnacle of my life's experience, revealed to me in the dream by the Ascended Master, has become my reality. Now I can be in a state of unconditional love at will, especially when working in sessions. Because I have crossed the bridge from the world in which we live into a place of love and peace, it motivates me to work with people, to help them to make the same crossing.